This idea came to me during a lazy holiday when I desperately needed something to make me more active. I’m on holiday, but somehow time flies faster than when my plate is full. It’s like I don’t do anything specific, and suddenly it’s afternoon, then evening, and night. I made a to-do list, but being forced to be busy is different from actually being busy. What I hate the most about this state is that I don’t appreciate my time as much as when I’m busy. In fact, I become lazy and demotivated to do anything. I just feel like I’m living to survive. From that desperation, the idea appeared.
Sometimes, we need more pressure to push our limits.
This happens to me a lot, and I’m sure I’m not the only one who sometimes needs to feel demotivated, lazy, sad, or down, just to have more reason to build power with a,b,c,d ideas. Because honestly, when I feel lazy, I become more eager to be diligent. When I feel stuck, I become more eager to look for inspiration. When I fail, I become more eager to find another chance. We can’t always be great, and we can’t improve if we think we’re always great. We need something to fulfill. I mean, in order to get more water, we need to empty our glass first before pouring the new one, right?
This also happens in social interactions. I wasn’t good at socializing, and now that I’m an adult, I have more reason to improve my social skills. I used to claim I was an introvert, but I realize that I don’t really fit into some introverted characteristics. I like making friends and initiating conversations because awkward silence annoys me more than sticking with conversations. I like to know people and connect with them, especially if they inspire me. I also like to sing and don’t mind singing in front of people I’m comfortable with. I don’t need much time to recover from socializing, as introverts usually do. I mean, yeah, I need some time alone, but that’s pretty normal whether you’re introverted or extroverted. You just need some time alone and some time to socialize in different amounts. So yeah, I don’t think I’m introverted; I’m just shy (maybe?).
Lately, I’ve been visiting places where I can find many people, just to get accustomed to the crowd. If my hypothesis is right, visiting these places could improve my social skills instead of making me tired and draining my social battery. So far, I really enjoy my visits, and it’s healthier for me too to get sunshine and touch grass. So I can confidently say that I’m no longer introverted. I think more people who claim to be introverted might consider that they might not be. Maybe they’re just shy and need more socialization?
The whole point is to start from your weakness. Have you seen the meme about someone who’s so busy working that they yearn to go on holiday, but when they’re on holiday, they can’t stop thinking about work? Well, it makes so much sense, right? We often think about things we don’t have. It sounds negative if I put it that way, but I’m sure you know what I mean. We have weaknesses, and we have those times when we feel lonely, down, demotivated, anxious, and hopeless… but maybe we can start from there. Like people say, we wouldn’t know black if there was no white. From the contrast, we find balance. It’s blunt, but I might say that sometimes, we need to be lazy. It’s okay to be a bit lazy, as long as you’re aware to get back on track.
